I haven’t written anything in months, I was angry with everything for a bit. I was frustrated, still hurt overall with what happened over the last year, and honestly, just tired. Anger is such an… Read More »Changes
So Sunday I decided to drink again. I’ve been seriously just feeling like I’m in a fugue. I try to be happy, I try to work everything out, but at night, those niggling thoughts come… Read More »Falling off the bus. Again.
Yeah I know I suck at titles, don’t care. Today, I thought about my death, and I didn’t freak out. No panic! attack. Just a calm decidedly simple thought, that it’s ok. This journey of… Read More »Death
I came to realize something tonight. It should have been obvious, obviously. Turns out that during the day, things aren’t so hard. I get to interact with people, work, take calls, go take the boys… Read More »The hardest time of the day
So most of what I’ve been dealing with has been directly related to my brother’s passing. From the heavy depression to the alcoholism, to the emotions overall. This journey I’ve undergone definitely has been trying… Read More »Final resting
So where to start. Depression is definitely no joke. When it comes down to the wire, I know I’m extremely depressed. Not suicidal at all, but I just can’t get over my emotions. And it’s… Read More »Not good
I could have killed myself on accident. It actually took me a few weeks of wading through emotions, but I really could have killed myself and it would have totally been an accident. This is… Read More »The 1st entry